Hello fellow earthlings (beings home to planet Earth), we are two down-to-earth beings who feel called to serve as ground control for fellow humans who are interested in journeying with 5-MeO-DMT. We facilitate the powerful, legal psychedelic in and near Vancouver, British Columbia with an approach that is gradual, supportive, and based on informed consent. We welcome you to explore our website and feel free to reach out to us.
I grew up close to nature on a farm in Nova Scotia. My early memories are filled with rich solitude sitting by the river in the forest or under the willow tree by the pond. Since my early teens I have been drawn to existential questions of life and death and to the path of introspection. In my 20s I did a bachelor’s in psychology and philosophy and a master’s in artificial intelligence. After studying the mind objectively for a number of years, I felt called to return my focus to the inner realm of being wherein rests the soul. Having stepped into the role of facilitating the inner work of others as a profession, I feel as though I am stepping in through the door of the house of my belonging.
I share my life with my partner, Helena, and together we have created a life filled with joy, love, and balance through our work, both inner and outer, and our shared love of nature, adventure, and freedom.
I spent my childhood between a quaint university campus, where my grandfather was a professor, and a rural home in the mountains. I have since spent a lot of my life on beautiful university campuses and in the mountains, both as a rock climber and a skier. I enjoy understanding the world we live in and how we got here, and a bachelor’s and a master’s in social sciences later, I am more intrigued by the humans in all those stories. I think we are all miracles and that we already know. I want to dedicate my energy to both exploring all that is me and that I could be and helping others find all that is them and that they could be.
- Toad School with Trina the Dharmacist and Lucy Everylove (for 5-MeO-DMT facilitation)
- Vancouver Crisis Centre (for comfort with crisis intervention and suicide prevention)
- Internal Family Systems workshop with Dick Schwartz at Esalen Institute
I am a gentle, soft tabby cat of a ripe age with wise whiskers. I weave in and out of facilitation, offering grounding company, playful headbutts, and distinctive purrs when they are needed the most.
About the Medicine
5-MeO-DMT is a powerful, legal cousin of what is commonly known as DMT (more precisely N,N-DMT), both of which are found in the Amazonian brew ayahuasca. As its nickname “the toad” suggests, 5-MeO-DMT is extracted from the venom of the bufo alverius toad, also known as the Sonoran Desert toad and Colorado River toad, which spend most of their lives in underground burrows. Given that humans seem to be able to produce 5-MeO-DMT endogenously in prolonged darkness, we treat the 5 (short for 5-MeO-DMT) as a gift from the toads’ darkness retreat under the earth. We use synthetic, or what we call vegan 5-MeO-DMT, because we don’t need to harvest venom from toads, which leaves them without defence, and because the other components of the toad venom aside from the 5-MeO-DMT can be toxic and produce a difficult experience for the journeyer.
Unlike many other psychedelics, the 5-MeO-DMT experience is relatively brief, lasting under 30 minutes. For many people, the short duration of the experience provides a sense of comfort in knowing that whatever happens, they will be back in the physical world soon enough. This in turn can lead to a greater feeling of trust in the medicine, which allows the journeyer to delve deeper into the experience.
In our work with 5 both as facilitators and journeyers, we have encountered profound themes of life, such as love and death. A common thread of experience is surrendering to life and therefore to death, but what takes up the space that the journeyer surrenders is immense light and unconditional love.
The healing work can also manifest in the body, with sensations of the medicine pushing through blockages within the body. Journeyers can feel more flow and lightness in their bodies, including expansiveness and freshness in their breathing. When in a safe enough space, it can also facilitate healing from trauma, namely re-opening a traumatic experience, but giving space for what is needed for wholeness, be it understanding it, recontextualizing it, or rewriting it. The medicine also has the potential to facilitate spiritual awakenings, whatever spirituality could mean for an individual.
Have a look at our 5-MeO-DMT resources page for some of our favorite books, articles, films, podcasts, and scientific studies about the medicine.
We provide a grounding and compassionate presence to hold space for the journeyer’s inward exploration. We work with the journeyer to provide a supportive, safe, and comfortable space for them, so that they could sink in deeper and explore further. We are sensitive to and attuned to the needs of the journeyer throughout the experience. We use a variety of tools to enhance and flow the experience, including but not limited to singing bowl, drumming, grounding exercises, poetry, and homemade herbal tea. We draw from person-centred and Internal Family Systems approaches to psychotherapy in some of our preparation and integration.
The short duration of the 5-MeO-DMT experience, lasting under 30 minutes, allows us space for three doses per journeyer within one session. We start with a very light dose, known as the handshake, to allow the journeyer a gentle introduction to the medicine space. For most people, this dose is mainly experienced in the body and is non-psychoactive. If the journeyer is comfortable with the experience and wishes to proceed, we then offer several increasing dosages, each of which have a characteristic quality. This multiple dosing approach allows the journeyer to develop comfort with the 5 and gradually deepen the experience within the session. We also see the multiple dosing approach as a method to maintain active informed consent, since at any point if the journeyer feels that their experience is complete, we can close the session.
We offer private facilitation of 5-MeO-DMT for one or two journeyers per session (5 to 7 hours per journeyer) in and near Vancouver, B.C. We offer three increasing doses of 5-MeO-DMT, which we call the handshake, the hug, and the full embrace, with integration and preparation in between. The service includes an in-person or Zoom preparation before the session, during which we can discuss any questions you have and iron out details for the session, and an in-person or Zoom integration after the session. Click the "read more" links after each heading below to learn more about our process.
Preparation Meeting [read more +]
Before your session, we will invite you to a one-hour preparation meeting, either in-person in our space or on Zoom, as suits your needs. This is an opportunity for us all to get to know each other and for you to ask us any questions you have about our work.
Prior to the preparation meeting, we will ask you to fill out an intake form that helps us understand your needs better as a journeyer. The intake forms covers intentions, previous experience journeying, and medications and medical conditions relevant to your safety in journeying with 5-MeO-DMT. Should we have any concerns in reviewing your intake form, we will discuss them with you in this meeting.
The preparation meeting is also an opportunity to help crystalize your intention in journeying and discuss what you can do to be better prepared for the journey day. [collapse -]
Journey Day [read more +]
Depending on whether you are coming alone or with someome else, we will set aside either 5-7 hours for a single journeyer or 8-10 hours for two journeyers. We start the session with a discussion of your intention going into the medicine and the days leading up to your journey; we find that the inner work often begins before you even take the medicine! We then talk about safety during the journey, touch, confidentiality, and what to expect at each dose.
Once we have convered all the groundwork, we transition into the ceremony space by moving to music, meditating, and reading poetry. Before offering the first dose, we give you the opportunity to practice inhaling from the empty pipe so that you don't need to worry about mechanics when you take the medicine.
We offer three doses, called the handshake, the hug, and the full embrace, each dose higher than the one before. Between each dose we help you integrate the experience, and talk about the upcoming dose. The handshake dose is a light dose, which for most people is mainly experienced in the body, revealing where tensions and blocked energy are held. The hug and the full embrace invite deeper levels of surrender, allowing us to feel, experience, and express what we've suppressed, and ultimately reencounter the infinite field of love that is always within our core.
Whatever arises in your session, we are there to keep you safe, and offer a loving, compassionate presence. The session ends with some homecooked food to help ground you back into this world before you leave. We find that journeyers are quite functional and even able to drive by the time they leave. [collapse -]
Integration Meeting [read more +]
Following your journey day, we welcome you to book a one-hour integration meeting with us, either in-person or online. We offer this space to assist you in bringing the insights you gained on your journey into your everyday life. This is also a space to ask us any lingering questions, give us feedback, and for us all to say our goodbyes until our paths cross again. [collapse -]
We ask for a financial contribution for our work on a sliding scale from $600 to $1,200 per journeyer.
Our Facilitation Spaces
We offer private facilitation in two beautiful spaces. Our city space in Chinatown in the heart of Vancouver offers convenience and the comfort of being close to home (for most journeyers). Our island house, a short ferry ride from the city, offers an oasis of nature and tranquility. With beach, forest, and a cedar sauna, the setting gives space for quiet reflection and reconnection with ourselves. Come either as a day trip from Vancouver or spend the night after your journey for $200 or $300, depending on the room.
Our Chinatown, Vancouver space
The island house
Upcoming RetreatsToads Breathe Semi-Private Retreat - September 16-18, 2022
We're partnering with Lorena Tatomir, breathwork and yoga facilitator, to bring a deep holistic approach to releasing into the medicine and your own healing. Experience three days and two nights of peace, nourishment and deeply transformative exploration nestled between the ocean and the forest on a quaint island close to Vancouver. [learn more]
We create a safe and inspiring space for both ourselves and fellow humans who journey with psychedelics to discuss, integrate, and manifest their experiences. We hope the existence of this space would give you the courage to dive deeper in your experiences, with the trust that you can bring the material to the collective consciousness of those in the circle. Our circles meet in Vancouver’s Chinatown on full moons and function on participant-generated circle agreements and donations.
Next circle: TBD
We create a safe space for 5-MeO-DMT facilitators to come together as a community to discuss what has been working for us, what we are exploring, ethics, self-care, and any cases that we would like to touch base on. We meet once a month on the new moon and start with a formal circle for the first two hours, followed by an hour of informal social. The circle functions on participant-generated agreements and donations.
Next circle: TBD
On a magical island some salt water away from Vancouver in spring 2022, we organized a Toad School, a foundational training for 5-MeO-DMT facilitation. We gathered four other 5 facilitators with diverse background and training and together created a holistic experience for learning, exploration, and growth. We included a ceremony roleplay, a facilitation practice with a mini dose, yoga, ocean plunge, healthy home-cooked meals, and training on integration, ethics, and trauma-informed care between crashing waves in the ocean and whistling needles of the forest. Together with 10 participants, we created a new community of toadies.
Read a trip report by one of the participants.
Hello fellow earthlings, we would love to hear from you. We can be reached at [email protected]. If you want to support our work, we accept contributions by e-transfer to the same email address or by crypto (please contact us for our crypto addresses).